Jack ‘n Tracie

First the news about my mom. Her surgery went very well. She had a spinal fusion done. She lost some blood but is ok. I’ve talked to her briefly after she got back to her room but she’s out of it and hopefully will get a good rest. They aren’t wasting time with her rehab. They hope to have her on her feet tomorrow.

Bob is the same. Still on life support in ICU. But awake and sorta coherent.

The hospital is awesome and all the nurses have been great, except Bob’s ICU nurse. She pissed me the heck off. More about that later.

It’s almost 11pm and I don’t know where I’m going to sleep.. so here I sit writing on this cause I don’t know what else to do. I can’t write it all out here (the reason I don’t have anywhere to sleep tonight), cause I don’t know who may read this later… And that’s the LAST damn thing I need right now.

But lets just say things are very stressful right now for me. I miss my family. I haven’t seen Casey, or Melissa in over a week because they went to the beach with Kellie and Dan for spring break. I only saw Kevin briefly as he stayed with Nathan during his spring break. Had I known this was going to happen I would not have left them spend their break away from home!! I miss you guys.. and I love you!!!!! *Hugs my babies*

I’m here till Sunday it looks like.. and then two days later I’m flying to California for a week. Maybe. I don’t even know now. I’m not even excited to go anymore. I don’t think I even want to go now. But my ticket is non-refundable and my mom insists I still go. So I don’t know what to do about that.

I’m just tired and overwhelmed to the extreme and currently I am probably not thinking straight. Right now all I want is to crawl into my own bed, where I know Jack is with open arms… It’s painful and lonely knowing that won’t happen tonight because he’s hundreds of miles away….